Have you ever thought about that? Jesus wept. In the midst of his heartache, in the midst of his impending death. He wept. He cried out visibly to his Father, praying that the cup would be taken from his hand.
When our children are hurting, scared or tired, they weep. We wrap our arms around them and tell them that it is okay, that it will get better, that they are loved. We rush to their sides, and attend to their needs, because thats what mothers do. After all, these are our babies.
Yet, when we, as moms, wives and women hurt, we hold it in. We tell ourselves that we must push those emotions aside, because after all we are moms, wives and women. We hold back the tears and put one foot in front of the other, day after day. When something in our lives touches us in a painful way, we feel as if we cannot, or should not show that emotion. We are under the impression that strength is equal to control.
It is not.
One of the most amazing scriptures in the bible ironically is the shortest. Jesus Wept. He knew he had no control over what was about to happen to him. He cried out to His Father, like your child cries out to you.
Its okay for you to cry out to your father. Its okay for you lay flat on the floor when the world seems to be too heavy and weep. I learned long ago, sitting in my living room while Emma waited for her second chance at life in a hospital miles away, that God is not only big enough to handle my anger, He loves me enough to handle my anger.
Im fearfully and wonderfully made.
That includes my anger, my hurt, my selfishness, my pride. That includes my faults, each and every one of them.
Dont assume that because you dont share your heart, He doesnt already know the intimate details it contains.
For the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought
-1 Chronicles 28:9
You are not alone in your suffereing and shame. Cry out to Him.
(This is a cross post from my personal blog, But I wanted to share it with you here too.)
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Thank you. Sometimes I need to be reminded…
This is great! I wrote last week, “The writings of an emotional woman” and it was addressing the same problem.Told all my life to “control” my emotions, I thought this meant I wasn’t supposed to show emotion, and when I did I was a weak and irrational woman. I have now learned that God gave me these emotions, and they are to be expressed. Paul said “be angry and sin not”. He never said “you can not be angry, hurt, or sad” Thanks so much for this post, it was a great reminder!
I loved your personal post and this one. Again, i needed this reminder even today!
This was beautiful Heather. Sometimes we want to be so strong for everyone else this was a great reminder that God does already know and that it is okay to cry our hearts out to God. He is big enough. Thanks for this post!
This is such an appropriate post for where I am today. Today is the 11th anniversary of my child’s death. Some years have been easier to celebrate, but already today seems as though it will be long and difficult without much celebration. I am so thankful that I can trust God with my anger, questions, and sadness. He has been faithful these past 11 years. God has walked with me through the darkest valley and across the raging sea. I love how much He loves me.