Weak Love

I have been meditating on this verse over the last couple of weeks:

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. (Matthew 6:33-NLT)

I posted a Facebook status a while back that said, “I may not have everything I want, but I always have everything that I need”. As I’ve reflected back on that statement, I’ve had to ask myself how many of the blessings I’ve received lately have been as a result of a heart that is fully seeking Him, or how much of it is simply as a result of grace.

I hate to admit that lately,  I’ve been seeking Him “on the run”. Life has gotten busy with moving, unpacking, kids in a new school, and just day-to-day life. I try to sit and read my Bible every day; yet, it seems like I’ve fallen short most days. I pray, but find that my mind wanders most of the time, and I can’t seem to stay focused.

My heart longs to know God….to truly KNOW Him and be known by Him. And even though I have fallen short of my disciplines over the last couple of weeks, I believe God knows my heart. He knows that I desire to love Him more, to know Him intimately. But, He has allowed me to coast through my faced paced life, riding on the coat tails of His wings. And there He has hidden me, in His shelter, in the cleft of the rock. And there He sees me, loves me and protects me. I desire to put God first in my day. But then I oversleep, rush the kids off to school, become impatient, get to work late, over eat, etc. It’s on those days that I feel I have nothing to give to Him. I recognize that my love for Him is weak. How can I offer up that kind of weak love to the King of Kings?

There is a prophetic song that was sung by a gal at the International House of Prayer recently that stirs my heart and moves me toward God every time I hear it. It talks about how God will not despise my weak love. He will not deny me. It’s a beautiful song straight from the heart of God. It gives me so much hope on those days when I feel like a failure as a wife and mother. I am realizing how much He desires my weak love. He wants me. In my imperfect, messy state. He will never condemn me or make me feel unworthy of His love.

God promises to never turn away a broken and repentant heart.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart— These, O God, You will not despise. (Psalm 51:17)

I found a video on YouTube of the prophetic song mentioned above. Please take the time to listen to it. It will stir your heart. You can find it here.

Do you feel as if all you have to offer to God is your weak love? Offer it up to Him fully. Completely surrender your weakness to Him and allow Him to come and fill you up once again. He will not deny you.