The Fluidity of Wisdom

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They share the common armrest, leaning in close to exchange childlike whispers. Soon the adult daughter rises to check with the nurses. I catch the wristband-clad mother smile so wide she tears as she watches her child handle the hard with dignity. Wearing pride so radiant it nearly washes away the lines of worry.

Later I witness the same daughter leaving the doctor-assigned room with tears of knowledge. Dignity still in hand as she proclaims “At least we know. We’ll get through this.”

And I want to tell her mother: All she has poured into her daughter shows. She has every right to pool joy from her eyes while she watches the roles transform.

During my quiet time that night, I read this:

How wonderful to be wise, to analyze and interpret things.
Wisdom lights up a person’s face, softening its harshness.
Ecclesiastes 8:1

It was the exclamation point I needed. All we pour or allow to be poured on us does show. Oh how I pray for wisdom. May we soak in the knowledge needed to do this journey well. So much so that it softens our edges and sets us aglow with the light of the One who made it all possible. For our children are smart. They’ll take notice.

My heart warms when I think of that mother-daughter duo. Probably because it makes me think of my own. Friends, I see droplets of my own mother shimmering through my everyday.

I’m certain my mother would tell you it was hard work. Even painful watching me grow into the woman I’ve become, constantly pouring while not being able to see the end result. It’s humbling to admit she might believe it was worth it now that we’ve metamorphosed into friends. Why, I even remind myself of this on my own hard days of parenting.

And to think, my Heavenly Father isn’t done with me. I’m still His child stretching, growing, soaking in His wisdom. Some days I wonder if He’s ready to give up. If I’ve possibly stretched the limits of His limitless grace. Some days I worry Jesus might regret all He went through just to save a wretch like me.

But then He gifts me with this:

I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are My friends, since I have told you everything the Father told Me. John 15:15

And I see the transformation happen as I soak in His words. Linger on His promises. Allow Him to pour new mercies upon me. I’m being transfigured into one He calls ‘friend’. Oh I pray it shows.

May I soak Him in so He pours out of me. Right on to the one clinging to my knee…

Father, what a gift it is to call You friend. Thank You for continuing Your work in me. Keep me pliable, Lord, so I soak You in and conform to Your plan designed specifically for me. I want to reflect You in all I do. Mold me into Your image. Pour Your love into me so it overflows onto those around me. For Your glory…

How about you? How has He transformed you lately? How do you soak Him in and pour Him back out? I’d love to hear.

18 Responses to The Fluidity of Wisdom
  1. Jenni Mullinix
    September 6, 2012 | 7:46 am

    A beautiful reminder, Nikki. Thank you.

    • Nikki
      September 6, 2012 | 11:04 am

      Thank you so much, Jenni. It seems I need this reminder often!

  2. Shelly Miller
    September 6, 2012 | 7:50 am

    Nikki, I read that very scripture from the book of John in my quiet time this morning. Sacred echo? Yes, it is for me. Thanks for this friend.

    • Nikki
      September 6, 2012 | 11:05 am

      Oh, I love that Shelly! Last week was the first time that verse ever jumped out at me like that. What an incredible gift to call Him friend!

      (It’s a delight to call you friend, too, Shelly. Thanks for sharing with me today!)

  3. Mindy
    September 6, 2012 | 8:28 am

    This is beautiful Nikki! Oh to see His droplets in me. What more can I ask?

    • Nikki
      September 6, 2012 | 11:06 am

      I can’t think of anything more to ask, Mindy! What grace…

      Thanks for joining me here today, friend!

  4. Susan
    September 6, 2012 | 9:53 am

    Gorgeous, Nikki. I pray my daughter and I will share such a bond. I think we will 🙂

    I love this prayer: May we soak in the knowledge needed to do this journey well. So much so that it softens our edges and sets us aglow…

    To radiate our Savior — could there be anything better?

    • Nikki
      September 6, 2012 | 11:07 am

      Oh I’m certain you will, Susan. 🙂

      Striving with you today to radiate our Savior. And tomorrow, too. That’s the thing with light…it can only be spent in the present. We can store it up…

  5. Elizabeth
    September 6, 2012 | 12:22 pm

    Oh you Nikki and your beautiful heart shine through in this magnificent testimony to how the Lord transforms us, ever changing us, making us new, making us so very new, in His hands. I know you blessed the mother and daughter in the waiting room and I know your mother delights in who you are and are becoming, just as your Heavenly Father does. Thanks for this.

    • Nikki
      September 6, 2012 | 1:40 pm

      Elizabeth, you read my heart so well! Thank you for encouraging me to keep striving. We’re doing God business after all. Hugs to you!

  6. Dolly
    September 6, 2012 | 4:33 pm

    what a beautiful testimony of love and honor for you to witness, and for you to share @ your relationship with your mom, and with God…what a gift…thank you, Nikki, for sharing…love your heart 🙂

    • Nikki
      September 7, 2012 | 11:07 am

      Thank you my dear friend. You bless me so! Hugs to you…enjoy your weekend with your beautiful family!

  7. aurie
    September 7, 2012 | 9:01 pm

    Nikki – this is beautiful! Thanks for sharing your heart today, sweet friend!

    • Nikki
      September 8, 2012 | 5:27 pm

      Thank you so much, Aurie, for stopping by and sharing with me!

  8. Joy Wombles
    September 8, 2012 | 4:24 pm

    Loved reading this beautiful tribute to a wonderful mother daughter relationship. Thank you for sharing it with us.

    • Nikki
      September 8, 2012 | 5:27 pm

      Thank you, Joy! You read my heart so well…

  9. Barbie
    September 10, 2012 | 7:45 pm

    What a beautiful thing to witness, the love between a mother and daughter. I pray for wisdom in my parenting daily, especially now that youngest daughter and I are homeschooling and we are butting heads. It’s been hard so far, but I know in the end it will be worth it.

    • Nikki
      September 11, 2012 | 3:38 pm

      Oh I’m so sorry to hear homeschooling has been hard! Being in my 2nd week, I see how easy that is. You are right. It’s worth it, friend. Thankful for the extra urge to pray ; )