Hold On Tight to Your Nair and Your Lord

Nair is my new best friend. I am thirty five and let’s just put it this way, I think I have more hair on my chin than my husband!! Now granted I can count my blessings that most of them are not thick, black hairs. But don’t get me wrong, the peach fuzz on my chin is an intrusion of my rights.

Over my 18 years of being a Christian, I thought I felt secure. I had the King of Kings in my life and knew that I was a princess, a child of the King. In a conversation last fall with a friend of mine, I (clear throat) told her that I did not struggle with insecurity. I even bought her a copy of Beth Moore’s, So Long Insecurity, so that she could conquer her own insecurities. In December, I asked her if I could borrow her copy. Feel free to laugh. I am laughing . . . . now!!

Isn’t that just like God to shake things up in your life enough to make you realize that you are leaning on the wrong rock, girlfriend? In fact, your rock that you are leaning on, if it isn’t the Lord, is probably about to fall right off the side of the mountain. That is, if it hasn’t already! In the So Long Insecurity Bible Study that I am now leading (grin) with my friend, Beth Moore takes a look at many characters in the Bible who struggle with insecurity. King Saul reminds me of myself (not because he had facial hair too). 🙂 King Saul was a picture of instability as a king. He was in a place of power and influence, but he could think of nothing else but the possibility of David taking over his throne and stealing his beloved son’s, Jonathan’s, affections. He let his insecurities take over his life to the point that he wanted David dead.

1 Samuel 18:5-9
5 Whatever mission Saul sent him on, David was so successful that Saul gave him a high rank in the army. This pleased all the troops, and Saul’s officers as well.

6 When the men were returning home after David had killed the Philistine, the women came out from all the towns of Israel to meet King Saul with singing and dancing, with joyful songs and with timbrels and lyres. 7 As they danced, they sang:

“Saul has slain his thousands,
and David his tens of thousands.”

8 Saul was very angry; this refrain displeased him greatly. “They have credited David with tens of thousands,” he thought, “but me with only thousands. What more can he get but the kingdom?” 9 And from that time on Saul kept a close eye on David.

Ok, maybe I can’t relate to that degree, but I do have a jealous sin nature that rears its nasty head where I feel like I am totally out of control. We call that OOC in our house!! I have been totally OOC with my insecurities of facial hair, my fears of others’ thoughts of me, and being better than me to the point of paralysis. In this past season of drought and frustration, I realized that even though I knew who I was in the Lord and that I was His child, I had a lot of insecurities and fear of loss that caused me a lot of pain.

I have realized now that I cannot do the things that God has called me, equipped me or chosen me to do if I am paralyzed by fear of someone else doing it better than me like Saul was in 1 Samuel. I am still learning though. I still struggle with fear of failure, loss and jealousy, but I recognize it better now. I am gaining more tools in my belt to be less insecure. And yes, Nair, is one of my newest tools in my belt. 🙂

Psalm 34: 1-6
1 I will extol the LORD at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
2 I will glory in the LORD;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
3 Glorify the LORD with me;
let us exalt his name together.
4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
6 This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.