I’ve been battling voices in my head lately. Not the audible kind. But the ones that tuck themselves away beneath the gaps in my heart. They like to come out and share their opinions of me when I am weary, or when I’ve let my guard down. These voices come with words that are not intended to build up, but to tear down and destroy the very foundation that I’ve worked hard to build.
These words tell me that,
I am not good enough.
I am not strong enough.
I am not loved enough.
I’ve been tired. I hit a wall and have been zapped of strength. I can barely keep up with the housework, my nerves are a little more tender than most days, and sleep can never come soon enough. When one is suffering from depletion and exhaustion, it’s easy to let our guards down and allow weariness and self-doubt to creep in.
I have been partnering with self-doubt.
Doubting that I am a good enough mom to my children.
Doubting that I am strong enough to weather the storms that are swirling around me.
Doubting that I am loved enough by my husband.
I was reminded this week of a song by Casting Crowns called, “The Voice of Truth”:
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I’m in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He’s holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. ‘Boy, you’ll never win!’
“You’ll never win”
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says “Do not be afraid!”
And the voice of truth says “This is for My glory”
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.
Today I am choosing to partner with the Voice of Truth. This is the only voice that will drown out self-doubt, but it will take effort to turn my ear away from the other, often louder voices. Hidden in God’s Word are truths, about me, that He longs to remind me of. If I am diligent to seek them out, I will find these truths once again.
Truths that remind me that I AM ENOUGH.
Truths that remind me that His strength is made perfect in my weakness.
Truths that remind me that I am loved, unconditionally, forever and always.
Today I am taking refuge in the truth of His Word. His Word is faithful and true.
This God—his way is perfect; the word of the LORD proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him. (Psalm 18:30 ESV)
How about you my friend? Are you struggling with self doubt today? Will you turn your ear to the Voice of Truth? He is waiting to affirm you in the truth of His Word today.