Before becoming a mom, I assumed mothers exaggerated how many times they heard the exclamation each day. I even remember having to force my jaw shut when they would ignore such a plea.
Now that I’m privileged to be put to the test, I see clearly why some would wait until they heard the “magic word.”
“Mom, look at me, pleeeeease!”
It takes going through it to realize how much energy it takes. To fully experience how hard it is to look on with excitement and portray what they’re doing as new. unique. special. Each and every day.
We really do change little over time, don’t we. We may grow up, but we never grow out of the desire to be seen. We all ache to be known for who we are and what we’re capable of.
My words may no longer say it, but my heart pleads otherwise.
“Someone, anyone, look at me! Do you really see me?”
The other day, when the morning rays were warming my face, I was reminded:
O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me.
You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
You see me when I travel and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord.
You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
God knows our desire to be seen. In fact, He implanted the ache within us, knowing He’d be the only one to meet that need fully.
I’ve become captivated by the Names of God lately. And I like to think the name “El Roi” was introduced early on because He knew how much we needed it.
El Roi: The God Who Sees Me.
After reading Hagar’s story, and hearing her exclaim the very desire of my heart in Genesis 16:13, I can know I’m not alone. And I can claim the truth scattered throughout God’s Word proving it’s validity.
- God pays attention to the details around us. (Matt. 6:26; Matt. 10:29)
- He can tell us how many hairs are on our head at any given moment. (Luke 12:7)
- He designed our intricate characteristics that make us…us. (Jeremiah 1:5)
- He knows what we need before we even ask for it. (Matthew 6:8)
Friend, There’s no doubt about it, He knows you. Broken, scarred, hurting, lonely, busy, happy, beautiful you.
He sees you. (Proverbs 24:12)
And He loves you anyway. Regardless.
What gets me most, is He’ll always look when we ask like it’s the very first time. New every morning. (Lam. 3:21-24)
He never grows tired of watching. He’s the Perfect Parent. Our Steadfast Shepherd.
Today, my lips curl upwards when I hear the familiar plea. As I look into the sparkle of my 4 year-old’s blue eyes, I can’t help but thank God for this opportunity to catch a glimpse of how much He loves me. And as I watch my son show me his new dance moves, my heart warms in worship.
Father, there You are. Right here in my living room. Thank You for seeing me. For looking when I call. For truly getting me and loving me regardless…Yes, Lord…I see You, too.